Hello again everyone❤️I hope you’re all doing lovely and life is treating ya decently😋
It’s time to pet those adorable puppies again and put on your favorite ball gown (or in my case sweatpants) because it’s another slightly sad blog post. Sorry in advance😬
I’ve broke down so much these last couple of weeks that I’ve lost count. The tears have been so many I’m surprised I even have eyes left from all the crying I’ve done. The pain has been so bad, and the stress of school hasn’t made it easy. I want so badly to be normal. I want to not have to deal with all this pain. Most of all I just want this sickness to end, I want my life back. I’m sixteen years old, I want to hang out with my friends, have fun high school adventures, live life as a normal teenager. Most days I haven’t even left my bed from the pain. It’s terrible to say the least.
God gives us so many inspiring verses to help us with pain and suffering, I look over them and I know that god loves me and is here for me through the bad. I’ve just begun to hit the limit with the pain, I’m so over it. I want more than anything to give up, just let the pain win.
As I said, I’ve broke down and cried my eyes out so much this week, but the worst break down occurred last night. Sometimes I let the darkness of depression in and let the pain overtake me and my emotions to the point of just thinking that dying will be my only pain relief. It terrifies me that I think that. I don’t want that, ever. Wanting my pain to end in that way, will only pass the pain on to my family and friends. I know God has plans for me and has put this pain in my life for a reason. No matter how badly I want to give up, or think that dying is my only pain relief, I just have to keep going.
My prince had to remind me of this last night. Through the tears and the pain he comforted me with words of hope and encouragement, giving me verses to think of and helping me not give up. I love my sweet prince so much, he is truly a god sent to me.
Through the pain, he just held me and wiped the tears away and we prayed together. I had said to him through my sobs how everything was falling apart that it was becoming so overwhelming.
“Don’t think of it as falling apart but tearing down to rebuild something better.” He had said to me and it had begun to ease my overwhelming thoughts. “God gave you the hardships that you’re facing for a reason because he knows you’re strong enough to conquer them. God will always be with you. You are strong.”
He gave me so many good words of encouragement, I can’t thank him enough. It made me realize many things.
I know God has a purpose for the pain, even when the pain gets so overwhelming and I think he has abandoned me, God is always here.
Philippians’s 1:29~ your pain has a purpose
Isaiah 41:10-13~ don’t panic, I am with you. There’s no need to fear, I will give you strength. I will help you. I, your God, have a firm grip on you and I’m not letting go.
No matter how bad life beats you up, no matter how much the pain takes over, God has got this, he will fight for you and take care of you. He gave you this struggle because he knows you’re so strong and you will win the battle.
Romans 8:18~ what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later.
You got this you lovely princesses/princes. We got this. It does get hard, you do break down and cry your eyes out, but no matter what you keep fighting and don’t give up. So put on those gorgeous ball gowns (or sweatpants!) and that crown of yours, and keep fighting.
I keep reminding myself through the pain that God can heal me, and he has a purpose for the pain.
Exodus 15:26~ I am the god that heals you.
Keep fighting. Don’t give up. You got this. We got this.